Shamanism is a collective word used to describe indigineous cultures medicinal people. A shaman is a person who connect with nature, finding spirit in everything, who communicates with spirits, guides, power animals et cetera, to heal him or herself, the lands around him/her, and the people in the tribe.

A little something I found to ensure me I would recieve a new dog, when I was inbetween dogs.

A little something I found to ensure me I would recieve a new dog, when I was inbetween dogs.

That’s very briefly described. I am not a shaman, nor will I ever be. But one can practise shamanism without being a shaman. And shamanism is the only spiritual path that has it all, for me personally. Differently from the LoA, shamanism more or less requires enormous sacrifices from anyone who walks that path. Pain and suffering is necessary to learn how to deal with it and heal from it. I like this approach, because it is more allowing than the Law of Attraction.

As with most ancient spiritual paths, shamanism has especially for western people, become quite modernized. Unfortunately, to some degree, I also feel that some parts of it has turned into that cult thingie that I dislike so much. That’s why I personally don’t want to go further than I have, I don’t want to study it under any teachers, get any certifications et cetera. To me, that’s just ridiculous.

So I choose to do it my way, when I need it. I’d love to be a more frequent practitioner, but to do it the way I want I need different living circumstances – and I’m not in the position where I can change that. Not yet, anyway.

My main interest in shamanism is the self-healing (no surprise there). What I get most out of are the shamanic journeys, usually done with drums or rattles. As it happens, I do my best journeying spontaneously, without those drums or rattles. It’s quite weird, actually, but it’s true. Through my journeys, I get access to a lot of knowledge and understanding about pretty much everything I need to know about life.

Most people practising shamanism recieve their information differently. Some people actually converse with spirits, guides, power animals, deities or whoever they get in contact with. Others experience their journey like a movie. Despite the fact I’m a very visual person, I see very little. It’s usually very dark, and I might see shadows or glimps of a face. It is extremely rare for me to have a conversation. Instead, I’m given heavily loaded packages with information, or an entire experience, through which I over time pick up information and insights about this and that.

I’ve not dived too deep into shamanism. My main focus has been the journeying. I’d love to go deeper, but like I said – for me, that requires living in a different place. I live in a city. There is a forest close by, but there are so many people utilizing it daily, and I don’t want to share my experiences with unknown people. So my dream scenario is to find a cabin in the forest somewhere, no neighbours, preferably with both rocks and some kind of water nearby. That’s how I’d love to live with my present and future animals.

But I’m not there yet. Not in mindset, not in mundane capability. But there is a hardcore shift in mindset in the works. I don’t want to talk too much about it since it’s kind of private – at least so far. But I can tell you that I have been approached by a power animal who is going to guide me through some serious, personal change. The work has already begun, the shift in mindset is slowly taking shape, and I expect that when all this work is done, I’ll be able to create more significant changes in my life.

Of the spiritual paths I’ve been discussing so far, shamanism is the one that has made the most difference for me. There is one more post to come that has made equally difference, in some ways even more, but in general – for me, it has basically everything to do with a certain shift in my mind. Once the Youtube channel is up and running in January, I’ll be talking about the most important lessons I learnt from my parents – and that’s what makes all of this so important.

Shamanism is not for everyone. Not everbody are interested in this, some are scared of it – and rightly so. This is where one has to face oneself deeper than one’s core. One has to make friends with every piece of darkness – and light, within. It is scary work, but very benefitial. However, it’s not required for the recovery of childhood trauma – not for everyone. If you’re interested, I highly recommend you take a look at it. The Internet is full of information – just make sure you find the good ones. You could start by checking out this Youtube channel, by Sandra Ingerman and Renee Baribeau.

What I really like with shamanism is that it covers everything. Symbolism, energy work, communication, the recieving of information, knowledge and understanding, the acceptance that people are physical beings and therefore not perfect, and so much more. This is the spiritual path that works the best for me. It is the only one that makes me feel whole, like a full person. And quite frankly, with what’s going on in my private spiritual sphere right now, I wonder if that’s not going to get even more true.

Later, I’ll write a post telling you about some of the experiences I’ve had in shamanic journeys. These experiences has been direectly related to my recovery from the narcissistic abuse my mom put me through.

My dad would tell me that none of this is real, that it’s only my imagination. Back when his words were my law, I’d have second guessed myself. Now, I would tell him – how does it matter if it is my imagination? If it helps, I’d say it’s a good thing.

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Eye C : recovery from childhood trauma (narcissistic abuse by a parent)

I grew up with a covert narcissistic mother and a father who overcompensated in a rigid manner.


My mother died back in 2001 and I have spent too many years being a survivor. This is where it’s time to recover and be the best version of myself that I can be.


It’s important to me to let this be a space where we are creative and positive in our ways to recover from the narcissistic abuse we’ve been subjected to in our childhood. It’s no easy task, but I’ll be damned if I can’t do it.


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Malinka P.