Oh, bloody hell. 😮 I’ve just uploaded the introduction video for the upcoming Youtube channel. Do you have any idea of just how terrifying that is? Oh, shit. I’ve been filming myself for days, being so uncomfortable with it. I don’t have a video camera, so I’m filming with my phone – and finding an angle where I feel ok has not been the easiest for me.

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So I am genuinely, honestly, properly terrified. Starting a Youtube channel is something that’s been on my mind for years, but now that I am actually doing it – oh, damn. I can’t really wrap my head around it. I’m the kind of girl who usually thinks that noone is interested in anything I have to say, and there’s no reason for me to do pretty much anything because noone will listen.

And here I am. On Youtube.

Of course, I’m not a Youtuber. Not yet. I might be, one day, if people actually subscribe, watch, comment, and a two-way-conversation kicks off. I’d love that.

I have to say, being the first video I put up on Youtube, I think it’s quite all right. Sure, I really do need to practise being comfortable in front of the camera, but – for the first video, it’s good enough. I’m going to go with that, anyway.

And in case you’re wondering – I’m a big fan of black and white. That’s the reason why the video’s b/w – and they’ll keep being like that. I love it.

Phew. But right now, I think I’ll drink up my tea, then go do my yoga. I think I could use some peace and quiet for the mind after this adventure. 😀

With love.


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Eye C : recovery from childhood trauma (narcissistic abuse by a parent)

I grew up with a covert narcissistic mother and a father who overcompensated in a rigid manner.


My mother died back in 2001 and I have spent too many years being a survivor. This is where it’s time to recover and be the best version of myself that I can be.


It’s important to me to let this be a space where we are creative and positive in our ways to recover from the narcissistic abuse we’ve been subjected to in our childhood. It’s no easy task, but I’ll be damned if I can’t do it.


Until then.


With love.
Malinka P.